What Now...

Nothing earth shattering but something to talk about none the less. I recently found out that one of my friends defriended me on Facebook. Honestly, it doesn't surprise me. She did try to reach out to me via Facebook messaging as well as actually call me at home. I came up short, I hate to admit. I never did answer her nor did I return her phone calls. I suppose I took her for granted, expecting that when I got ready I could pick up the phone at anytime I wanted and she would welcome me with open arms, without question. Well I never did get around to calling her, causing her to take matters into her own hands. Who knows how long its been since she defriended me; I can't answer that. I just happened to be on my Facebook page yesterday and I went through my friends list just out of curiosity. She was nowhere to be found. I went through my list one more time just to be sure, although if she wasn't there the first time what in the Hell makes me think she would be there the second time around. It was obvious she was gone. I admit I was annoyed; she had the audacity to defriend me? Really? Considering our history? Really? She must be out of her mind! Yeah, I know, a bit harsh, but still!

After finally getting the spelling of her name right I found her and decided to reach out to her. Although I did not ask her if she was out of her mind for what she did, I did call her on it, almost demanding an explanation. I mean who was she to defriend me. With a little guilt she would pay for that. Well she finally answered me. Oh boy, did she answer me! I won't go into detail about what she said; lets just say she did not mince words. To my surprise, she actually hit a nerve because she was right.

So you're wondering what the point is right? Well my point is that we live in uncertain times. Its easy to say one thing, but have your actions mean something else. The idea of friendship is simple. I like you, you like me, we click. It makes since that something comes of having this connection with each other. If nothing else a friendship develops. We spend time together, doing things that we can look back on with fondness. Given enough time a bond hopefully grows that becomes unbreakable. That's my idea of friendship, but what does it mean to be friends in today's world? What defines friendship to others? A large list on some social network that's considered hip? Its funny how long it took me to even realize we were no longer "friends." In a sense I was humbled because she ended the relationship instead of me. I let her down in her mind. If she had never defriended me would I have taken the time to reach out; no. I would have taken pride at my little list of friends that I have acquired and kept it moving, hoping at some point to add more "friends." Exactly what does she mean to me? I do miss her. There was life before Facebook believe it or not. Moments shared, both good and bad. After thinking about what she wrote back to me I decided to put my ego to the side and apologize. That was yesterday. The ball is in her court.  I'm waiting for a response even as I write this piece. Do I think she will let bygones be bygones and have me back in her life? Or is that just wishful thinking? What now?